The "BIG" Question

Why was this specific combination of atoms of Carbon, Hydrogen, Oxygen and Nitrogen put into you? 

Why do you feel what you feel? 

Does anyone else feel the same as you feel, Not just about love or lust, nature or time but anything else, about 'life'? 

Does anyone question them self at times about the existence of their being? 

Does anyone get surrounded by the plethora of questions you get surrounded by? 

Do you believe in that eternal power who made you?

Do you question yourself about your purpose in life?

What are you meant for?

For what have you taken birth?

These questions might bother you at some point of time, consciously or sub-consciously.

Well, Lately I have been asking these questions to myself. I've been thinking and over-thinking about what I am meant for and what is my sole purpose of existence. Everything happens for a reason they say, What is the reason behind my birth? What do I want from my life and what I want to give back?

I am not born to live just a normal life and succumb to the eternal world. I am to live and mark my presence.

In fact, Each one of us is to live and mark their presence. We are in a journey of which destination is unknown since the day one. We have to discover our self and find that destination. I live with a thought that makes me believe that, that boundless power above me has made me for a specific reason.

I am a traveler now with no aim, no goal, no real destination.I am in search of my destination. I am just walking and walking towards the horizon with a hope of discovering my true reason of existence. If you are my fellow traveler and feel the same let me know. We can help each other. We could be the lights for each other in the dark. We could help each other create a path and travel on it. We can pick up the one who falls and give them support when needed. We can help each other overcome that horrible period when we feel aimless, useless and non-existing.

The "BIG" Answer

"Life is not just about living and wailing it away,

It is about leaving your imprints in the sands of time, 

It is about finding your own identity, your aim, your purpose and your sole purpose of existence,

It it to know thyself and fulfill your purpose after knowing it,

Life is not just living."

Across the river

I always knew someone was waiting for me across the river,

I could see him each time I passed the river bank.

It was this weird tingling feeling which kept obsessing me day by day and moment by moment when I thought 

about it.

It was like a new world beyond the horizon of my own world and little dreams.

I wanted to know who he was and what he wanted, 

Why was he making me want him so bad,

I had various little numerous questions for him to answer,

I wanted to know,

I was curious.

One stormy day I was determined,

determined to know him and ask my questions.

I took out my boat, hopped in and started rowing across the river.

I was rowing and rowing.

There were large ripples and whirlpools all around me,

Against all odds of nature.

There was this strong force stopping me from meeting him

But it wasn't stronger than my urge to meet him.

My urge, My desire, My dream of meeting him was going to be complete and I knew however hard anyone tries,

They wouldn't be able to stop me from meeting him.

I reached the bank there was no one there,

I lost hopes, I lost every dream I had.

Suddenly my eyes were stuck to the bank where I came from, I could see him there.

No, It wasn't possible,

He was looking for me, I knew.

He was standing and looking at me.

There was this lightening, I could see his face,

Yes, I could and He wasn't a 'he' 

He was 'she'.

She resembled me.

Oh god! It was me, I could see my own self,

It couldn't be true, It cannot be possible.

But then I knew,

All this while, I was searching for my own self,

I was searching my soul,

My non-materialistic real dreams,

I was in search of myself.

And suddenly I opened my eyes with a new energy, A new hope, I woke up from a deep deep sleep.

I was dreaming.

But this wasn't a usual dream,

It was a realization, A new energy and probably what I want from my life,

To find myself.

To know myself.